At the age of 14 I committed
to be of service for Love as a daughter of God..I felt a remembrance of who I was spiritually speaking. And though I had a skewed view point due to the influence I was being brought up in, my relationship with the Divine was alive and well. My genuine prayers were real and though I was confused because of the crazy world I was growing up in, I can see now, Love was meeting me right where I was at. I was always highly sensitive as a child, I just didn’t know the words for it back then. I
would notice spiritual things and had many experiences sensing spirits and moves of the Holy Spirit as child. At that time though I was coming to life through the lense of how I was raised which was in a Christian home in a suburban town in middle Tennessee. I could see the hypocrisy and contradictions around me, but I didn’t know how to process it yet. I was also a ’regular’ little girl. As good as I had it as a typical “American” child with a caring family so to speak, the reality was just like most Americans … I was experiencing a lot of dysfunction in the family, culture of life as it was, and in the church that my family was devoted to. I had an opening of certain spiritual gifts when I was 14 years old, but at that time I didn’t have the support system or maturity to stabalize to be able to handle it. I experienced some deep trauma in my early teens and I started to admit in my coming of age the messed-up-ness I was seeing in how adults were acting around me and in this world. I started to become more confident in opening my voice as I was exploring in safety through the arts, drama voice expression, and friendships … These events along with my spiritual connection opened me up to finally start asking- What is really going on here? What is true in this life? This was in the time period starting at about 16 years of age in 2001, 2002. And I started be brave enough to admit that I did not just blindly believe everything that was being taught to me in my childhood. So, I started my seeking journey.. And in my very wounded, fractured, post traumatic stress state..I was awakening as some call it. I hit some lows that I’ll save the sharing about for another time. And it was quite the unfolding journey… sometimes wanting to go “back to sleep” so to speak, or escape.. but once you see something.. there is no unseeing..and any attempt to numb or distract would prove to not be beneficial or work truly.
Much of my life ‘education’ has been through relationships. I was drawn to relationships with a partner and these various relationships became a through line of my seeking of divine union, having a series of discoveries and experiences as I related and connected with various partners through my young adult life.
Fast forward to when I was about 28 in 2013 I had an “ah ha” or wake up moment and had the faith and made the intention and commitment to heal naturally. I still felt and sensed my connection with Loving Creator. I prayed and searched. I started with working with a compassionate naturopathic doctor and a caring therapist I felt safe to be honest with that was a caring witness and support. And I went on through the seeking process and worked with different spiritual leaders in aims to support the process. I started practicing tantra which I later realized there was only parts of those practices and teachings that were liberating while the other aspects of spiritual beliefs and consent I engaged in became another misleading belief system for me. With some of the spiritual teachers I learned just as much from witnessing the messed-up-ness coming from them as much as the Divine sparks of wisdom they shared at times.
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I started healing deeper with support from certain guides that reminded me to connect with Loving God and my true essence. This started happening in a more committed way around 2018. (I had experienced yet another set of lows that left me desperately seeking God’s support. Something I’ve noticed in my spiritual seeking journey is that it every time I genuinely seek Love’s guidance, some kind of support comes to help me through and support the next integration.) Once I found the right kind of support team that reminded me to get my support straight from Loving God Most High..my life has quickly taken me back to my true heart‘s desires and a healthier life. The healing started escalating in quickness. With support from these loving sisters and Love team I have been focusing on inner child healing, quantum healing, calling back parts of my natural essence that were fragmented and stuck because of trauma I experienced or consent I had engaged in before, opening my heart chamber and connection with Loving God, developing a healthy, committed lifestyle with devotion to the Divine with consistent prayer, healthy living choices and practices, and spiritual protection practices to hone my connection with Love, Truth, Life and to protect me energetically. The preparation with a spiritual leader that has most supported me and most aligns with who I am now was the Diamond Heart Priestess Mentorship that I did with beloved sister Jewels Ahl of diamondheartpriestess.com. The focuses mentioned above that have best supported me and I have trained in sufficiently are what I focus on in the healing sessions I share now.
One of the blessings and examples of how Life has started falling into place, thank God, is in 2020 I became a mama to my sonshine! Birthing my son has been one of my biggest transformational experiences and blessings, recentering me in a whole new way. And in 2022 I entered marriage with my beloved! I am blessed beyond words to be a beloved wife and devoted mama to now our 2 precious little boys! Marriage and committing to our life purpose and harmonious union together as a couple has been huge. There is nothing quite like a marriage and parenthood to have you face your stuff. We are deepening in our relationship to self, each other, and life together. We are balancing as we come together. Our beautiful boys are now 3 years and 6 months. Becoming a mama and entering union with my beloved has focused my healing integration and I have been rebirthed as our babies were born. It has been humbling and empowering, it takes you to the real. As I do my best to love these children, I heal my inner child on a deeper level. I am doing my best to love them the way they need and be a cycle breaker to stop hurtful cycles of the past. And though I mess up often, the grace of God is loving us and refining me consistently.
Besides being a healing guide and mother, I have a background in childcare, the arts, and teaching for my life work thus far. I share this as what we do can be revealing. First of all I will say, I am not defined by what I have done.. You are who you are. If we were to be defined by our past, by what we did.. yikes. So many of my mistakes and choices how I have shown up are not reflective of the true me and my experiences have taught me though. And its not wise to hide behind some decorated image of ourselves. So when I share aspects of my past experience it is to be revealing, not defining. I share some of this background with the intention to point to certain inclinations and natural signature, templating, and gifting I have, and to share about experiences I’ve been through and that have helped prepare me for what I am doing now.
For 12 years I worked caring for children. I was an assistant teacher to young children in Montessori preschools and in a developmental communication classroom with children with language impairments and autism and then a Nanny and dance teacher to beginners. Working with children has given me a deeper understanding to people and human development than I had before spending so much time with different children.
The arts I liked because I could express beyond what I was able to in other ways, dancing, writing, painting or experiencing others art opened me up to more of my authenticity within while also exploring life here on this planet. I see how the arts give a way to experience life in another way, expressing energy and connection in this other form of communication. Also, I like the process of creating… there is something to be found/ discovered in the process.
I started as a young adult studying to teach children and then after trying to be an elementary teacher I quickly changed my mind once I tried teaching in the public schools, deciding the school system was not for me as I did not agree with how the school system was doing things and could see the harmful aspects of it. My spirit was a big- No, this is not for me. I then went on to continue practicing dance and art (as that’s what I really enjoyed doing most). I studied dance and dance education and art and art education and then received an MA in Interdisciplinary Arts in Chicago IL and focused on the different disciplines of art including movement, visual, writing or word, and sound arts. As I was immersed in the arts and arts education was when I was working as an assistant teacher to young children in preschools. Then, I moved to New York City and then Los Angeles, eventually making my way to Santa Cruz and Hawaii as I cared for children as a Nanny for 7 years part-time while teaching dance to beginners part-time. I continued to practice art, dance expression, and writing as well and part of my exploration was leading a startup contemporary dance company for 2 years. Then, I explored starting classes called Flowers Movement that combined creative movement, dance, and meditation. (Fusing breath practices, meditation, movement, and having a sharing circle).
As I mentioned above I grew up in a Christian home. I defined myself as a Christian until I was 26 years old in 2011 which was one of the big turning points in my life. That was when I left the religion as I sensed flaws in the belief system. I at the same time left life as I knew it including leaving my first marriage as a 26 year old and I and went into unknown territory. It has been quite the experience leaving religious programming and leaving the ‘comfort’ zone of the belief systems and the support system and family of my young 20s and what I grew up with. Although I left Christianity, I still love and have a relationship with loving Yeshua Christ (although my beliefs differ from the Christian mindset). His love and care transforms my life! After I left that part of my life I went down another path that, though I saw sparks of light, it led me to a different darkness than the darkness of the misleading I sensed in the modern day Christian belief system and churches, …but though my very wounded lost self led me to some very dark places, I never forgot the light and Love never forgot me. Step by step I have had to face myself and face what’s going on here. When I got into tantra and yoga for some time as an alternative spiritual practice after I left the Christian church, I found value in connecting to our breath, and higher states of awareness, and being healthy with healthy movements and exercises for the mind, body, and spirit health, and opening to our life force energy; however I don’t consent to all the spiritual belief systems of yoga and tantra. I do not consent with the new age. There is a lot of false light within many belief systems. You can find truths within many religious texts and spiritual texts and teachings, however in most there is a “mixed bag” of some truths and some deception in my belief. I am committed to deciphering what is true and what is off as I am here for that that is of love, truth, and life. I believe the truth is found within and through our direct connection with Love and our authentic self. We don’t find that by just listening to what someone says and taking their word for it. As we heal and clear out the falsities, what is not of true life, we can decifer clearer and clearer what is a yes and a no. I am on my way and have compassion in the embodiment process. Ultimately, I realize the one truth that holds true as a guiding light is God is love and I am God’s child here to be one with Love. This is my guiding light, lighting my way home.
The lived experience informs. All glory to God Most High for the healing and love in my life. God’s will is the best will.
We are one with the living light as God’s beloved children, thank you Love!
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